Shadows

There’s a new love in my life. His role is not to fill the hole left by Andy. Nor is his role to fill the hole left by Peeshu, my sweet fur baby that left us earlier this year. He has his own place.

Let me tell you about my love, Petey. He has the most beautiful, piercing, nearly useless eyes. The cutest, perky, completely useless ears. That’s right. My new love is deaf and almost completely blind. He can detect movement, probably the difference in shadows. He can see light. When we are sitting in the yard together, if he can’t see me, he will stop and look frantically around. If he can’t see my shadow or detect movement, he will start to sniff the air. His sense of smell is very high. You can watch as he starts to detect me, and once he catches a glimpse, the relief on his face is almost painful. How often is my life like Petey’s? When I’m lost in the shadows of life, and can’t find the One that brings me the most comfort. The panic and fear that sets in. The frantic searching. If I just stop and let that connection that we share take over, I can be guided back into His presence. Just a sniff. Ten minutes in my chair. A heart’s cry. That’s all it takes for His comforting hand to hold mine. And the relief and peace that brings is so awesome. To be fair, if I can see that Pete is struggling to find me, I will go to him. I won’t let him feel abandoned or that I’m not there. I gather him in my arms, and we will share some snuggles and he is comforted and feels safe. And so do I. Sometimes we have to make our way to Him, and sometimes He comes to us. He promised to never leave us, nor forsake us. Even when we are scared or feel alone.

You are not alone.